....Ok you heard and read right..im kinda in a delema when it comes to what i want to do after I graduate in June from College....Im graduating with a AA degree in Computer Graphicz & Design...some of you have seen my work that i have posted up on here ( i would like it if you asked before you used it in other places and then again if you dont asked i will find out and it wont be pretty )

*coughs and looks around*

..ok i have the chance to move with one of my friends of 2 years up to Missouri...*looks at that word*...i think i spelled that wrong..but anyway you know what i mean..and to tell you the truth i am honestly thinking of doing it..i mean...this guy who wants me to move up there with him...i honestly love him..but he has always had someone around him or he was always involved with one of his ex's. when i first met him he was single and trying to choose who he wanted, then i came around and got pulled into it...now think of this...a 28 year old, black, 5'9, great person, had some trouble in the past, does have 3 kids, but sweet as hell...

*rubs flushed face*

..this man has me so twisted and pulled so tight against him that....honestly i dont want to move..

*sighs and takes a sip*

..but...im not sure if either of us are stable enough to do so..when i speak to him about this...he says he already has a place lined up for us..and he really wants me to go with him...he told his mother he doesnt like the relationship he is in now because basically his girlfriend runs his life, he cant have other female friends, he's lost me twice...everytime i had to tell him i dont want to talk to him..it made me hurt even worse...i remember one day i came up to his work pissed but i didnt say anything...i simply got out of the car he came over and said his usually "hey baby girl"...i couldnt look at him..i gave him his CD's that he made me back and got back in the truck and left...i hurt so bad when i did that...it was like i was giving up on him...all because of his girlfriend...she kept coming between him and myself...between our friendship and not likeing the fact that i hung out with him...

*leans back and bits lip*

....but now we try to see each other when we can...i cant get him out of my head..and my heart aches when i see him with her...im told he doesnt look happy at all when she's with him, but when i come around he brightens up...

*blinks and plays with shirt tail*

..i want him so bad..but i have to wait until the end of June to see if things work out...the only step following that ...would be...telling the parents that...im moving out..and moving in with someone they dislike so much...but they dont see what i see...they always think the worse of people...they dont give any of my friends a chance ...they assume the everything just because of where we live....

*rubs belly*

..ok im hungry so ima eat ...if someone can help me and give me some advice i would really love it!!!

*yawns and smiles*
peace out all

Hisashi1988 aka RoguetheWanderer